Summer Winter Autumn Spring

Let there be light
dark be thy rooms

silver plated 'virginity'

lost in it's own

summer

Inexperienced darkness

a nostalgic effect

in my 'neverland'

lost in it's own

winter

Living truth
died happily

gruesome effect

the society 'renewed'

lost in it's own

autumn

Creation is I

the end of me

boundaries unlimited

lost in it's own

spring

A dream I saw

A Dream
I saw
in the
middle of nowhere
Dancing through time
Dancing through space
Dancing through feelings
The city of joy
in rhythm with it
rejoicing
in it's own colors
No pace
No time
could I
imagine
The' trance dance'
The ' dance of life'
----

Discovery of the century

A square wheel
bump bump bump
Not very good
triangular wheel
bump bump bump
A round wheel
- - - - - - - - - - -
Aha!
Discovery of the century

Nature and I

It was autumn

the smell of the lake

the crisp leaves

the plain earth

Nature wanted him

all over

Down the lane as he

walked

seduced by

nature

the 'other'

in him

shouted

an inner realization!

Craziness

was it?

he asked

the 'other'

Indeed.

27.dec.2008

The shell
stagnates

The road
lonelier

The laugh
faker

2:00am, 9th Aug

She thought it was a joke.
It sure was.
But she had never imagined the joke would turn into the biggest truth of her life.
Time flew.
Love blossomed.
But real life could not be as mushy as the reel one.
Distance mattered
A lot
for them.
The arguments
The Silence
The society
The norms
Ha!
Strange it was, for sure
Love, like they say is 'blind'
but they saw ahead
too ahead perhaps
And
a crack
they saw
Tears fell
stuck in the
middle of nowhere
or maybe somewhere
they could not see
'Friends, we shall be forever'
they vowed.

She thinks it is a joke.
It sure is?

The painting

I sat to paint
looking back
I saw a
'plain'
'dull'
'colorless'
feeling
and
The strokes of life
splashed all over
the abstract mind
Irritated as ever
I held the brush
and
gave my feelings
a pause...

'Stage Play'

Seeing them
on stage
I went back
in time
once again
when
I used to
blend into
characters
Jealous
was I
as I felt
the urge
to do something
new
different
Time stops me?
People stop me?
Situations stop me?
or
Am I...

the birthday parties

' Happy birthday to you....Happy Birthday to you.....'
And..whoooosh..
Wel, those were the days...when mums used to go through ol' recipie books to make the BEST LUKING birthday cake..and ya, it had to be YUMMY too :)
Those were the days..when the best friend used to get the 'honour' of knowing all the 'secret' games of the party..(as if it were some 007 plan!!..oh cmmon, it was no less)
Those were the days..when decorating the house with balloons and stuff was such a BIIIIG thing!
Those were the days..when none of us felt embarassed to wear those special birthday caps..

Those were the days when 'return gifts' were a fad!!


I guess..I am way too old..or perhaps feel so
way too old for 'planned' birthday parties..where kids are specially invited by sending 'hand-crafted' birthday cards...where specialised event management offices are called to 'plan' birthday games! What could be more exciting than musical chairs or passing the parcel or pin the donkey!

I guess I belong to the early man era :|
But I am happy to be there.
With my memories, I 'sign out'
and feel 'sad' for the kids of today.

Cheers.

06.Nov.2008

Well, I was a part of this short film festival..and I must say it was an amazing experience..Quite strange but true, not many films have affected me the way these 10 min films did...And not only did they 'affect' me but also left a 'long lasting' mark about various other issues.
I cannot just 'jot' down the synopsis of any two/ or maybe three..films..because almost all of them were different in some or the other way..and I am not here to flatter them or get some kinda job!! but am serious!!

PS- Thanx ayan sir and krishanu for the amazing compay...and the stupid jokes..and the discussions..and the photography 'shoots'...the fest couldn't have been better!!! ;)

'random thoughts'

Move On

'Move on'
they said
I wonder where I am going.
Days after it..why do I still feel..lonely..guilty..
whatsoever
an 'insane' feeling
which is
'trying'
to come out and shout
'UGHHHHHH'
None of this makes sense.
Never did.
Never will.

The End

No more
can I
play the
game of
'Illusion'

'Absurd'
is what
the figment
of mind

'Face'
no more
can I
see mine

'Elysium'
may I call
this
place

'Deception'
is it the route
to
'never-land'

'Lost'
am I
in the game
of nowhere

Stop
as
I am going
Nowhere...

Ha!

Against the norms of the society
here I go
'again'

A sense of
excitement
in me
'again'

'Ha'!

xoxo

....

I feel free
my dirt
all of it
mine
don't even dare
touch it
my people

is this what
he meant by freedom
Am I feeling it?

Can you??

Abstract-ness

I wonder sometimes if the 'abstract' in me is alive..Seeing things the way they are is not 'me'..A great man once said, "See beyond"..I laughed at him..How could you see beyond things?..they are supposed to be the way they are 'here'..we are not 'taught' or 'made' to do that!
I don't think many people would agree..or maybe..understand the 'logic' of 'seeing beyond'..ha! a wonderful 'experience'..if i may use that word!!

Ma, I am sorry...

No longer am I
the 8 yr old
girl
who hides in her
room
after a 'prank'
and
says
'Ma, I am sorry'

.................

04.08.2008

I am speechless..

The block

Blank

another blank

Desperately trying to get
out of this 'block'

and go back to my
dream-world

Not today
I guess

The wait goes on...

6:02pm..

Seems I have become quite a 'frequent blogger'..never expected this to happen, cos I prefer the 'pen' to a 'machine'...still do!
Well, met the old hostel gang after ages..I am really bad in maintaining contacts..ha! and someone wants to pursue PR!! Moving on..came to know many of them are shifting back..sad eh! I still remember the way we used to curse this place ..and look..have we fallen in love with it?? I guess we have!
xoxo