Saturday, December 27, 2008


The shell

The road

The laugh

Monday, December 22, 2008

2:00am, 9th Aug

She thought it was a joke.
It sure was.
But she had never imagined the joke would turn into the biggest truth of her life.
Time flew.
Love blossomed.
But real life could not be as mushy as the reel one.
Distance mattered
A lot
for them.
The arguments
The Silence
The society
The norms
Strange it was, for sure
Love, like they say is 'blind'
but they saw ahead
too ahead perhaps
a crack
they saw
Tears fell
stuck in the
middle of nowhere
or maybe somewhere
they could not see
'Friends, we shall be forever'
they vowed.

She thinks it is a joke.
It sure is?

Thursday, December 4, 2008

The painting

I sat to paint
looking back
I saw a
The strokes of life
splashed all over
the abstract mind
Irritated as ever
I held the brush
gave my feelings
a pause...

Saturday, November 22, 2008

'Stage Play'

Seeing them
on stage
I went back
in time
once again
I used to
blend into
was I
as I felt
the urge
to do something
Time stops me?
People stop me?
Situations stop me?
Am I...

Sunday, November 9, 2008

the birthday parties

' Happy birthday to you....Happy Birthday to you.....'
Wel, those were the days...when mums used to go through ol' recipie books to make the BEST LUKING birthday cake..and ya, it had to be YUMMY too :)
Those were the days..when the best friend used to get the 'honour' of knowing all the 'secret' games of the party..(as if it were some 007 plan!!..oh cmmon, it was no less)
Those were the days..when decorating the house with balloons and stuff was such a BIIIIG thing!
Those were the days..when none of us felt embarassed to wear those special birthday caps..

Those were the days when 'return gifts' were a fad!!

I guess..I am way too old..or perhaps feel so
way too old for 'planned' birthday parties..where kids are specially invited by sending 'hand-crafted' birthday cards...where specialised event management offices are called to 'plan' birthday games! What could be more exciting than musical chairs or passing the parcel or pin the donkey!

I guess I belong to the early man era :|
But I am happy to be there.
With my memories, I 'sign out'
and feel 'sad' for the kids of today.


Thursday, November 6, 2008


Well, I was a part of this short film festival..and I must say it was an amazing experience..Quite strange but true, not many films have affected me the way these 10 min films did...And not only did they 'affect' me but also left a 'long lasting' mark about various other issues.
I cannot just 'jot' down the synopsis of any two/ or maybe three..films..because almost all of them were different in some or the other way..and I am not here to flatter them or get some kinda job!! but am serious!!

PS- Thanx ayan sir and krishanu for the amazing compay...and the stupid jokes..and the discussions..and the photography 'shoots'...the fest couldn't have been better!!! ;)

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Move On

'Move on'
they said
I wonder where I am going.
Days after it..why do I still feel..lonely..guilty..
an 'insane' feeling
which is
to come out and shout
None of this makes sense.
Never did.
Never will.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

The End

No more
can I
play the
game of

is what
the figment
of mind

no more
can I
see mine

may I call

is it the route

am I
in the game
of nowhere

I am going

Saturday, September 13, 2008


Against the norms of the society
here I go

A sense of
in me



Saturday, September 6, 2008


I feel free
my dirt
all of it
don't even dare
touch it
my people

is this what
he meant by freedom
Am I feeling it?

Can you??

Saturday, August 16, 2008


I wonder sometimes if the 'abstract' in me is alive..Seeing things the way they are is not 'me'..A great man once said, "See beyond"..I laughed at him..How could you see beyond things?..they are supposed to be the way they are 'here'..we are not 'taught' or 'made' to do that!
I don't think many people would agree..or maybe..understand the 'logic' of 'seeing beyond'..ha! a wonderful 'experience'..if i may use that word!!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Ma, I am sorry...

No longer am I
the 8 yr old
who hides in her
after a 'prank'
'Ma, I am sorry'


Monday, August 4, 2008


I am speechless..

Thursday, July 31, 2008

The block


another blank

Desperately trying to get
out of this 'block'

and go back to my

Not today
I guess

The wait goes on...

Tuesday, July 29, 2008


Seems I have become quite a 'frequent blogger'..never expected this to happen, cos I prefer the 'pen' to a 'machine'...still do!
Well, met the old hostel gang after ages..I am really bad in maintaining contacts..ha! and someone wants to pursue PR!! Moving on..came to know many of them are shifting back..sad eh! I still remember the way we used to curse this place ..and look..have we fallen in love with it?? I guess we have!

Saturday, July 26, 2008


One of the best phases of my life :sigh:


People often make fun of me saying that I am too 'idealistic' for this society..maybe..Well, I won't get into the argument of idealism now..but would like to tell all about this movie called 'do aankhen barah haath'..It is based on an 'open prison experiment' where the 'jailor' takes 6 prisoners to a barren land in an effort to make them 'human'..The change is gradual and is 'believable'..
I would love to interact with prisoners someday..especially in India..and would love to study their behavior..
There are various moments in the movie which actually make me think if a prison could 'change' the behavioural pattern of a person or worsen it..

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

I - a fragment

They call me
'bad girl'

a girl with
'attitude problem'

a girl who does not follow

a girl who does not want to know
how to cook curry
or wear a saree

_ _ _ _ _

I am
the girl who shouts at the society
and believes
that the day is not far
when there will be a

_ _ _ _ _

They hate feminists
call them
'bra burning' bitches

They want freedom
freedom of?
freedom from?

Lost in its many connotations

it seems it means
to anyone

_ _ _ _ _


If anyone..ever asked me..'can you give me a shortcut to happiness'..I would's dance!
Since I was a child..whenever I felt sad..i would just turn on some music..imagine myself in a show..and dance..!

They say,"Bodies never lie.''

Saturday, July 19, 2008


Current Mood- VERY VERY ANNOYED!!!

Just had a fight with someone..not very close..actually not close at all..and fought for a 'very' stupid reason!!
Okay lets just end it here!! Hmmmm...
Second on the list- someone did not call me...someone pretty close..too close..!! did not call me..!! Okay now thats a good reason to get annoyed!
Third- I did not go to the party..! I had been waiting for it the whole week!!! okay no problems..I am going to another..tomorrow!

Loadsa stuff..!! and oh! fourth- I am hungry..ahhh..not a very good reason to get annoyed!!

Friday, July 18, 2008


I miss those rains
which took
away my pain

it is
I feel blue
I feel grey

I am
in this city

I wish to be kissed in this rain
Oh rain
Let me sing
for once
'I miss those rains'


Current mood- very tired

shifting to another apartment can be sooo tiring..was helping a friend shift to his new place.
ps- i love his apartment!! and i hate my hostel :(

Thursday, July 17, 2008


Aimless...yearning for a cup of look at my room makes me wonder what could be more 'messy' than this!! yuck!
I have been missing dr nandan and sanchi a lot..the discussions...after-class-arguments!! our fav hangout- my garage!! our mission- to 'educate' the society...and spread awareness!!! ha!!
our life- sociology..feminism
I was 'free' then..cos I had sir with me...We were together..a 'classless' society..however small it did exist!
His words..'There will be a revolution!'

Gone are those days?
Do people...move on?

Monday, July 7, 2008 last

A brief candle; both ends burning
An endless mile; a bus wheel turning

Say it loud and let it ring
We are all a part of everything
The future, the past and the present
Fly on bird
You're free at last

Sunday, July 6, 2008

.... you baby

Wednesday, June 25, 2008




Did you hear anything?
Neither did I

Someone shout

Killing isn't it

Sunday, June 22, 2008


Loneliness like a good friend, old friend
visits my house to pour wine in the evening
And we sit together, waiting for the moon
and for your face to sparkle in the shadow

Faiz Ahmed Faiz

A girl

No choice was her own
"What have I done?"
she shouted

You're a girl
and you'd better not forget that
My 'soul'
is under 'his' control

Today I am supposed to
My life is in the hands of a 'man'
who like a puppeteer
will make me dance to his tunes

The goal- to win my heart

So I say once more
You are a girl
and you'd better not forget that.....

Friday, June 6, 2008

Girl Power

This was something i came across the other day and loved it!

Shah Rukh Khan – Actor
Earns Rs. 257 per minute

Amitabh Bachhan- Actor
Earns Rs. 255 per minute

Mukesh Ambani - Industrialist
Earns Rs. 413 per minute

Sachin Tendulkar - Cricketer
Earns Rs. 1163 per minute

Indra Nooyi - CFO Pepsi Co.
Earns Rs. 2911 per minute

And that's just the beginning of the many fabulous things she is capable of

Don't abort the girl child.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008


missing u all a lot!

Sunday, May 18, 2008


Was it nothing
but a dream

I feel i could sleep forever
Just to dream you again

Oh! Here I am
in this world
Hoping to see your face
one last time...

If only I could
feel that touch
express my love
kiss you once
Is that really asking for too much?

Thursday, May 15, 2008


with a vision
she was born

eccentric was the word
she used

passion was the feeling
she had

power was the belief
she lived with

- - - -

why can't I see

'she' said, "no more do I exist,
no more can I live
no further can I breathe
in you..."